so i have decided i want to fight mother nature. i don't want to give her a black eye or anything, but i do want to defy her. my body aches. my back hurts, i have eye strain. my work is killing me softly i think. i've tried to adjust to working in a cubicle, but my body won't let me. the job itself is ok, it's the working environment that has my number. now, i am bummed about this for a couple of reasons. the first reason is i just wanted a job i could go to, make some cash & leave. instead, when i go to job, i get horrible back aches & even more horrible eye strain. secondly, i think i am going to have to quit & i really hate that. however, the one thing i am sure of in this lifetime is that i don't have to prove anything to anyone, so to hell with a job that makes me feel like i am a feeble 95 year old.
with that being said, i think once i am out of there i plan on falling off the radar for a while. i really need to jump at the chance to work on me. and i don't mean to get into bikini model shape to start traiing again, but the i just want to be healthy time. it's the least i can do for myself!
hopefully, when i post again, i will have released myself from prison & am on my way to a fresh beginning. for those who are wondering, i am in a great place emotionally & mentally! just need the physical to catch up.
love to you all!!!
asian
