Being sick on & off for almost a month has really screwed with my goals. I went full time at my job & still teach boot camps in the wee hours of the morning. So I am all like all over the place. Rest? Somewhere it happens. Raw foods, when I remember to eat-lol! I was all stoked to go to work & workout at lunch (cuz there is all kinds of fitness equipment everywhere) & then go to kickboxing & I'll be damned if I didn't start coughing all over the place this morning. This time it's sitting in my chest, not my head. So I can breathe, just not deeply.
My kickboxing place called me asking me why I was AWOL. Ha! Now I have zero time to train for my triathlon, but I truly would rather be kickboxing. Anyway, my point is, that I am trying so hard to change my lifestyle & then I keep getting sick. I wonder what that's about? Seriously. Like am I that afraid of change that my body responds this way? Are raw foods actually the devil reincarnate? Ok not really b/c every person I see that is 100% raw looks FABULOUS. Then I am like, should I sell out & take supplements? Nah...I just am confused. Plain & simple. Am I trying to make something happen that's not supposed to right now? Like I can get my workouts done & change my food along the way. Do y'all know I am turning all red & getting all flushed typing this? WOW-what a reaction I am invoking just talking about this.
I tend to spazz out sometimes & wish like hell I was in a Southwest Airlines Commercial - 'Wanna get away?' I am itching to travel & explore & see what the world has to offer me. Oh wait, I forgot, I like have responsibility :( Boo! I am trying to research how to become an archaeologist. I have always wanted to do that. I know, it's insane, but I am not through learning from this world! Anyway, I am totally rambling now. Blah. I guess only time will tell if I can do the raw foods thing 100%. I hope everyone is well & I look forward to more epiphanies, or something.
Hugs!
