I am so Drunk...with Love & Compassion

So I think I finally know what it is like for someone who does drugs & gets that instant high. I've never done drugs (they scare me!) & I don't drink. BUT, my assumption is that what I am feeling is like a hit of heroin. I feel so amazing that if I could shoot this feeling into my veins I'd probably do it every day.



I had a visit with my amazingly Awesomesauce incredibly Dazzling beautiful Loving Therapist & FINALLY had a real emotional release. I won't go into details, but I just have to say this: I get a gold star for accomplishing something & truly passing through to the other side. I can't even form sentences & literally am slurring my speech because the release was that intense & that real. I truly feel drunk & high at the same time & can finally say THIS is what it's supposed to feel like. I think I have a lot of great shizz coming my way & I am stepping out of my way & getting it done! Ok, I am too wooozy to type anymore.

Love to all!!!

Going Green

So I posted a while back about my mission to go green. Starting with food. It literally is baby steps. I mean one thing at a time. The one thing I have done is I have gone pretty much 99% organic. Anything that is cooked is organic & can I tell you it makes a huge difference in taste & how I feel? The coffee even tastes cleaner. The strange thing is this, whenever I eat a healthy meal, I instantly get sick. I mean nauseated & have to lie down. If I eat a junk meal, I am bouncing around the room fine. Am I that TOXIC?!?! I think I have to go through dr. grose's First Line Therapy. I'll know more tomorrow morning. Speaking of, my third round of progesteron starts on the 16th. We'll see how that goes. Again, my energy has been wishy washy again.

Woke up with all kinds of congestion. I can't imagine why...It's finally a nice day out. So the job hunt is so/so. I am trying to figure out if I want to work for a year & clear out all debt & then retire permanently, or kick it & get by. I am seeing my happy heard person tomorrow so she'll be able to help point me in the right direction. I wanted to stop, but i think one more visit can't hurt!

Oh! Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!!! We are not ones to celebrate, but for those who do more power to ya :) I hope everyone is surrounded by the peple they love every day!

Hugs!!!