Expressing my right to write

Ok-I know I said I'd get back to business about my weight loss journey, blah blah blah. BUT, just when I think things are going well, something small happens & then I am full of nothing but piss & vinegar. This is the only place I can vent any of this. Facebook is a bit too upclose & personal kind of like all the other social networks. But this is my blog & I can do what I want to.

I wish there was a way for me to divorce my in-laws. I am this close to getting a restraining order, mainly because i never want to see them ever again. I KNOW my mother in law is going to live to be 100 just to fuck with me. UGH!!!!! I HATE her so much & his fucked up sisters. I love my husband, but i swear this can be a deal breaker for me.

I know I am not perfect, but I don't intentionally go & do something horribly wrong & hope for forgiveness later. I DON'T play like that. I never have & I NEVER will. Them? That's all they do. That fucking shit is spilling over into my life & I FUCKING hate it. If you lie to my face-I don't forgive as easily. Just be front about your fucked up ness & then we can move on. Again, I am all pissed off & my husband wants things to be peachy between us. You know what? I actually get to process. Yep-I get to bitch & moan about it until I feel better. That's my right & no one can take that away either.

All I want to do is say 'F***' 0ver & over again. Seriously. Aside from breaking shit. Tomorrow is going to have to be a better day.

Crunch Time

Ok-getting closer to 26. ok, ok, 35 is going to be my real age, but i refuse to be a day older than 26. Anyway, I have roller derby tonight & that is a rigorous workout :) 2 hours of up/down & cardio. Oh! The real reason i posted this is that alex's x-mas party is dec. 11. that's close. yikes!!!!

Light Hearted :)

I know this is going to sound crazy, BUT my husband & I had a huge blowout fight about his family & it was the best thing ever. We never fight & the only time we do is when it comes to that craziness. Anyway, long story short-we are totally on the same page now & life is all good again. YAY!

Tomorrow I am going to go to CrossFit & then do an hour of cardio & weights & hopefully get to kickboxing.

Hugs!!!

Asian