So after my last post I realized that yes, I was a bit emotional, but it has sparked something inside me. The first thing I am going to do, is visit nearby supermarkets to see who carries what organic products, the local farmer's markets & pull out my vegan cookbooks.
Something else I'd like to do is learn how to grow a garden. This one might take a bit for me because I have no clue about that, but you have to start somewhere. So, I hope that my efforts will at least make another foot print towards believing in humanity again. I know, it's so dramatic, but I want the small farmer to survive. I want to feel my optimal health & know that if I ever have babies, they'll have a fighting chance in this world to have a healthy life. I want organic produce to be abundant on every corner. I know it won't be easy, but any little change ia good. For instance, I am now using vegenaise instead of mayonaise & I LOVE it. Tastes just like mayo & is 100% healthier. I am using Alicia Silverstone's The Kind Diet.
It's funny, now that I have energy I don't sleep all day so I need to find something to stimulate my mind. I can't think of anything better than working on going green!!!
That's it for now. Love you all!!!
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Friday, January 29, 2010
Watching Food Inc.
It's really hard for me to express how I feel right now. I mean really, really hard to express. As a matter of fact I feel so overwhelmed I've been reduced to tears. If you've seen then you'll understand what I am about to say next. I am overwhelmed & reduced to tears because it just seems like no matter what I do in this world it won't matter. Why? Because the big corporations run everything. You have to watch & see why, but just bear with me. It's bad enough the horrible treatment the animals receive, but to genetically modify & push that crap into our foods & there are no consequences? The big corporation is in bed with the government. I know, it's all a matter of opinion at this point - but I am PISSED. I am sick to my stomach & I can't stop the tears. My heart feels heavy & I don't know what to do. Does it really matter what changes I make? I have to say, I feel like I've been duped & that our country doesn't give a fuck about the ecological consequences.
I have a new mission. So the gov't can do whatever the fuck it wants & the corporations can kill as many people as they want, but I am going to get a job to pay for turning my house green. Food first & then everything else. I don't care if I starve in the process. I am so pissed & hurt & sad & AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
I have a new mission. So the gov't can do whatever the fuck it wants & the corporations can kill as many people as they want, but I am going to get a job to pay for turning my house green. Food first & then everything else. I don't care if I starve in the process. I am so pissed & hurt & sad & AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
i don't know what to do
Sooooooooooo like I have all this normal energy & I have to say it rocks the casbah! It's been so long since i've felt normal :)!!!!
A cool thing or two that will result from this: (1) I will be able to wear a bikini by summertime (2) I will be able to wear a bikini by summertime...Yes, I have a goal!!! We were looking at Bora Bora for vacation but it's like $500 a night to stay there & that's like 3 star digs. So, it will either be England, Italy or New Zealand. Either way I want to look good & feel great for this trip! Alex will be traveling the world for work & racking up miles out the izz. So we'll be able to fly free.
I hopped on the treadmill this morning & would have kept going but my damn blind cat took a poop. Normally this isn't a problem, but since she is blind, when she poops she can't see to bury it so she doesn't even bother. Then the smell wafts into the house...BLECH!!! It interfered with my walk this morning...
Ok, I am going to use this insane energy to clean, clean, the house because we are road tripping to Plano tomorrow.
Peace out peops!!!
A cool thing or two that will result from this: (1) I will be able to wear a bikini by summertime (2) I will be able to wear a bikini by summertime...Yes, I have a goal!!! We were looking at Bora Bora for vacation but it's like $500 a night to stay there & that's like 3 star digs. So, it will either be England, Italy or New Zealand. Either way I want to look good & feel great for this trip! Alex will be traveling the world for work & racking up miles out the izz. So we'll be able to fly free.
I hopped on the treadmill this morning & would have kept going but my damn blind cat took a poop. Normally this isn't a problem, but since she is blind, when she poops she can't see to bury it so she doesn't even bother. Then the smell wafts into the house...BLECH!!! It interfered with my walk this morning...
Ok, I am going to use this insane energy to clean, clean, the house because we are road tripping to Plano tomorrow.
Peace out peops!!!
Thursday, January 28, 2010
so bored....
i don't think i've been this bored since my dad would take me on motorcycle business trips & since i was a kid really couldn't participate in anything.
i am also incredibly premenstrual...which i have found is not a really good time to join weight watchers - hahahaha. oh well, i am alloted 35 extra points for the week so i may just use them up today. i am doing this all online because the meetings i have found are for people who want to just talk. not all the meetings are like that, but the majority i have gone to in the past were like that & i wanted to pick my eyeballs out with forks by the end.
so i keep going back & forth on getting a job. i think i need to just chill & just be & realize that i am incredibly fortunate to not have to work. embrace it instead of fighting it because i know there are several people out there who are jobless. my own brother got laid off in december...but he is more of a grown up than me & has like 6 months of savings....
alex is about to leave the country in a couple of weeks & will be gone for a month. that is a really long time for us because we've never spent more than 3-4 nights apart. i hate it when he's not here at night, i can't sleep. but the reason i brought this up is he won't be a distraction either. the only time i will be putting on my personal trainer hat is for me. i weighed myself & cannot believe how fat i am. i am not beating myself up, but REALLY? how is that i let myself go? was life so horrible i forgot about myself? i guess the only thing i can truly do is one step at a time & move forward. the cool thing is with rewards points, i got myself a pedometer & a new scale (since mine is broken). so that was free kind of - lol!
anyway, this is what happens when I am bored. i guess i can get back on the treadmill & watch my dvr shows...well, i hope everyone is well!!
love you all!
i am also incredibly premenstrual...which i have found is not a really good time to join weight watchers - hahahaha. oh well, i am alloted 35 extra points for the week so i may just use them up today. i am doing this all online because the meetings i have found are for people who want to just talk. not all the meetings are like that, but the majority i have gone to in the past were like that & i wanted to pick my eyeballs out with forks by the end.
so i keep going back & forth on getting a job. i think i need to just chill & just be & realize that i am incredibly fortunate to not have to work. embrace it instead of fighting it because i know there are several people out there who are jobless. my own brother got laid off in december...but he is more of a grown up than me & has like 6 months of savings....
alex is about to leave the country in a couple of weeks & will be gone for a month. that is a really long time for us because we've never spent more than 3-4 nights apart. i hate it when he's not here at night, i can't sleep. but the reason i brought this up is he won't be a distraction either. the only time i will be putting on my personal trainer hat is for me. i weighed myself & cannot believe how fat i am. i am not beating myself up, but REALLY? how is that i let myself go? was life so horrible i forgot about myself? i guess the only thing i can truly do is one step at a time & move forward. the cool thing is with rewards points, i got myself a pedometer & a new scale (since mine is broken). so that was free kind of - lol!
anyway, this is what happens when I am bored. i guess i can get back on the treadmill & watch my dvr shows...well, i hope everyone is well!!
love you all!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Hmmmmm...
So my friend Tex & I have been chatting about blogging. SHE just moved her awewsomesauce Blog & has some really cool & upcoming blog stuff. So check her out when you can!
Also some of my friends are doing weight watchers. I go back & forth for doing that online because it is hands down one of the best online tools to use. Especially for points users, you are allotted a certain amount of points & u just plug in what you ate & voila - the pounds melt off. But, I don't want to pay $$.. Hahahaha. I don't know, I've been really wishy washy with that stuff. All I can say for now is that I am HAPPY. I haven't felt truly happy in a really long time.
Do you remember the last time you really felt happy? For some it's an every day occurance, for others it seems to be a struggle. I plan on using this new found happiness to get my bikini body back. I know, I've talked a lot of shizz about getting back in shape, but I FINALLY have the energy to do so. HALLELUJAH!!!!
Oh & this totally random, but I HAVE to post this!!!! Ok, so when we first moved into my neighborhood we had a really sweet welcome from our immediate neighbors. Then we got SNUBBED. I mean, it was bad - they would not wave or look up when I walked outside or drove by. So finally instead of being nice, a few days ago I said FUCK it. I am just going to do my thing because quite frankly I think 99% of people are annoying. There are a LOT of sheep that live in Texas & it is just annoying. Anyway, I got an email out of the blue from a neighbor who snubbed me. Not only did she apologize for being a bad neighbor but she invited me to this. Anyone who knows me, knows I don't like dressing up & Being froo froo. At first I was scared they were going to throw bible verses at me & scorn me for not having children, but then I started looking & realized there are other groups within this group. So I think I will give it a chance, but my husband made fun of me and said I was going to be a Stepford wife. The way I see it, it's a social outlet for me that is way long overdue. And in actuality, my husband thinks I should join.
So that's about it. Hubby & I are ROCKING it as a couple & things are falling into place. I hope everyone is doing well & Hopefully I'll have more interesting things to talk about.
Love you all!!!
Also some of my friends are doing weight watchers. I go back & forth for doing that online because it is hands down one of the best online tools to use. Especially for points users, you are allotted a certain amount of points & u just plug in what you ate & voila - the pounds melt off. But, I don't want to pay $$.. Hahahaha. I don't know, I've been really wishy washy with that stuff. All I can say for now is that I am HAPPY. I haven't felt truly happy in a really long time.
Do you remember the last time you really felt happy? For some it's an every day occurance, for others it seems to be a struggle. I plan on using this new found happiness to get my bikini body back. I know, I've talked a lot of shizz about getting back in shape, but I FINALLY have the energy to do so. HALLELUJAH!!!!
Oh & this totally random, but I HAVE to post this!!!! Ok, so when we first moved into my neighborhood we had a really sweet welcome from our immediate neighbors. Then we got SNUBBED. I mean, it was bad - they would not wave or look up when I walked outside or drove by. So finally instead of being nice, a few days ago I said FUCK it. I am just going to do my thing because quite frankly I think 99% of people are annoying. There are a LOT of sheep that live in Texas & it is just annoying. Anyway, I got an email out of the blue from a neighbor who snubbed me. Not only did she apologize for being a bad neighbor but she invited me to this. Anyone who knows me, knows I don't like dressing up & Being froo froo. At first I was scared they were going to throw bible verses at me & scorn me for not having children, but then I started looking & realized there are other groups within this group. So I think I will give it a chance, but my husband made fun of me and said I was going to be a Stepford wife. The way I see it, it's a social outlet for me that is way long overdue. And in actuality, my husband thinks I should join.
So that's about it. Hubby & I are ROCKING it as a couple & things are falling into place. I hope everyone is doing well & Hopefully I'll have more interesting things to talk about.
Love you all!!!
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