Re-evaluating

Ok, so do you ever wake up & say to yourself - 'Self, you've been lying to yourself! You think you know everything & what's best for you, but in reality it isn't working.'

It appeared to me today after my crossfit workout. i've been a no no bad liar & it's been to myself. Interestingly enough I haven't beaten myself up about it. All I can do is re-evaluate what it is that I am repeating that isn't working. So with that being said, I KNOW i have to eat better. How can I expect to progress towards my goals & achieve greatness if I keep eating poison? Also, my cardio-WHOA!!! Like I said in a facebook post-I don't even think I can call it cardio. That wouldn't be fair to cardio!

So what is my next step? Push myself harder with my cardio & start to follow a reasonable & doable eating plan. I want to try & cut out most animal products, but at this point I don't think I can completely. Alex, my amazingly supportive husband, is on board with me :) We are painting our cardio room this weekend & setting up our free weights. For the first time in a long time, I am excited about my journey!! Especially now that i have a partner in crime.

Well that's it for now. I am going to go pass out from my workout this morning.

Peace & Love!!!!

Allergies?

Really? Right now in the throes of my badassness? I woke up with a congested head & if there is anything I hate more than running, it's not being able to breathe through my nose. So not fair~!!! I hate taking the allergy medicine because it dries me out & then I get a cough with a funky taste in my mouth. Hmmmm-methinks maybe today is a day of reflection & rest?

I wish I could burn calories snorting snot. Ok that was gross, but that's about all my body is doing right now.

So this post is just so I can post. I wish I lived in a state where we had seasons. I would give anything to experience that. I have lived here all my life & have only seen snow maybe twice in my life. Sigh...Anyway, not sure when I will bring it again. I think tomorrow.

Peace & Love!

Pity Party

So today's workout sucked ass. I mean I might as well have not shown up today. Then we did some hard core workout that involved pull ups & I was so distraught that I couldn't do those. I mean horribly upset, quivering upper lip, tears in my eyes upset. Needless to say I did what I could, but wasn't 100% into it. Also I didn't really like the sub we had. She annoyed me.

Anyway, I was chatting with hubby & he has this knack to ask me the wrong questions sometimes. For some reason he thinks I can read his mind & he's already played out how he got to his question & then when he asks & I don't react the way he thinks I am going to he gets upset. How is that my fault? Whatever. My point is that I am not a mind reader, I have never claimed to be & quite frankly I will probably react the same way again at some point in time in the future.

I am just cranky because I was limited by my shoulder today & that just plain sucked. I'll get over it.

One thing I have noticed though is that I seriously need to work on cardio. My cardio is so bad right now. Yikes!!! I've had a lot of work to do on myself for a long time, but now it's really setting in. Guess I just have to keep going.

Dear Self

Dear Self,

I have a few things we need to talk about. They are in no particular order, but they are important nonetheless.

Remember when you were 26 & did your first sprint triathlon? Remember how you finally ran a 5 k just because you hated to run? Well you're not 26 anymore! Slow your roll or at least remember to allow your body to recover. Your workouts are harder & more intense & you need to have good solid rest. Not to say that in a few weeks you won't be your old 26 year old self, but allow yourself to ease into it.

Don't get discouraged. Just remember that at this point food is fuel. We know you've had issues with food which is why we are where we are right now. I know you've been a rock star so far, but just keep it up & listen to your body.

You WILL REACH YOUR GOALS!!! You Will!!!! It's going to be insane how in shape you are. At some point I am sure your body will stop aching. lol! Keep your chin up :)

I think that's it for now Self-just keep it real & listen to your body. As a matter of Fact-Let's Post your WOD for the day.

CrossFit WOD: Front Power Squats

1 Set - 3 Reps of the Following:

Set 1 - 65 lbs
Set 2 - 75 lbs
Set 3 - 85 lbs
Set 4 - 95 lbs
Set 5 - 100 lbs

I was supposed to max out, but I didn't start off with enough weight. So my guess is that I would max out at about 105 lbs.

Anyway, that's it for now. Trying to muster the strength to get to kickboxing.

Peace!

Hot Bodied Asian in Progress

I really want to start whole new blog

Is it possible to do so? Ok - anyway, back to the cleanse. I have decided my body cannot handle horse pills, but the fiber portion is awesome! I feel so much cleaner on the inside. Not too much weight loss though. I figured out that by my birthday I need to lose about 3 pounds a week to make it happen.

Here is my update as of 9/15/09:

I have been consistent with CrossFit now & I am already feeling stronger! My shoulder is getting stronger & not in so much pain. I went back to kickboxing last night for the first time in a couple of months & bruised the shit out of my forearm doing elbow strikes (I HEART elbow strikes).

As far as diet I am now on a zig zag diet that consists of:

Protein
Fibrous carbs
Complex carbs

Boring huh? But the weight just drops off my body! It's all timed & everything. I eat every 2-3 hours. For the most part I am not hungry, but it's so low calorie. I finally found a whey protein I dig that doesn't have a ton of stuff in it. It's a very clean protein powder Jay Robb You can find it at HEB or any grocery store.

My main goal consists of two things:

1. To prove I can do this! I will have a fitness model body by the end of the year
2. Health-I want to be healthy to do all the things in life I want to do

Let's see-OH!!!! Big OH!!! I signed up to get CrossFit certified in January. Woot woot!! We are making a vacation of it so I singed up for the cert in Colorado. Yummy!!!

Well party peops (as my friend Tex would say!) That's about it for now!!!

In Healthh & Wellness!!!!

J Mark

I think my Blog is now Just a Blog

Being sick on & off for almost a month has really screwed with my goals. I went full time at my job & still teach boot camps in the wee hours of the morning. So I am all like all over the place. Rest? Somewhere it happens. Raw foods, when I remember to eat-lol! I was all stoked to go to work & workout at lunch (cuz there is all kinds of fitness equipment everywhere) & then go to kickboxing & I'll be damned if I didn't start coughing all over the place this morning. This time it's sitting in my chest, not my head. So I can breathe, just not deeply.

My kickboxing place called me asking me why I was AWOL. Ha! Now I have zero time to train for my triathlon, but I truly would rather be kickboxing. Anyway, my point is, that I am trying so hard to change my lifestyle & then I keep getting sick. I wonder what that's about? Seriously. Like am I that afraid of change that my body responds this way? Are raw foods actually the devil reincarnate? Ok not really b/c every person I see that is 100% raw looks FABULOUS. Then I am like, should I sell out & take supplements? Nah...I just am confused. Plain & simple. Am I trying to make something happen that's not supposed to right now? Like I can get my workouts done & change my food along the way. Do y'all know I am turning all red & getting all flushed typing this? WOW-what a reaction I am invoking just talking about this.

I tend to spazz out sometimes & wish like hell I was in a Southwest Airlines Commercial - 'Wanna get away?' I am itching to travel & explore & see what the world has to offer me. Oh wait, I forgot, I like have responsibility :( Boo! I am trying to research how to become an archaeologist. I have always wanted to do that. I know, it's insane, but I am not through learning from this world! Anyway, I am totally rambling now. Blah. I guess only time will tell if I can do the raw foods thing 100%. I hope everyone is well & I look forward to more epiphanies, or something.

Hugs!

Still sick...

Why is that when you make a commitment to do something, that there is always something that universally goes wrong? I mean, I got the schedule I have dreamed of giving me the capability to workout at least two to three times a day. Then I get all sick & am STILL fighting shit off. Ugh!!!

Good news is that the hubby finally sat down & read 80/10/10 to make sure I am not missing something in the world of raw. He basically said I wasn't eating enough foods. Plus he is finally over his sickness & is ready to start working out. My mind & heart are willing, but my body is pissed right now!

Anyway, I just wanted to let everyone know that I will be posting more regularly when I am better & consistently on track. I hope everyone is well!!!

AJ