Rent is Due

Yes-I am still a renter!! I am ok with that. It's the first of a new month & there are many things to celebrate. I have an anniversary, I am returning to boot camps, I get to budget & watch my debt monkey dwindle, I have joined a new gym & found a new way of eating. Woo hoo!!!!

I realized something today that I don't like talking about. My body is not where I want it to be. For a long time I have been in denial & making excuses for what I do why I do it. That's such bologna & hogwash!!! My thighs have finally taken over the Greater Houston Area & I don't like it. I don't. It's icky!!!! I have finally realized that I don't need to lose weight, I need to lose the baggage that has kept me in this state of denial. It's not about winning a fitness competition, it's not one upping the hussie that works out like Fergie & walks around in spandex, it's about getting healthy. Mind, body & soul. Bring it!!! I used to break down & cry about the sad state of my body, but now I just go ok, you can either keep crying or do something about it.

Things I have done so far to baby step into a new lifestyle:

1. Ok-FUCK going straight raw, I am easing my bitch ass into this until I really feel comfortable.
2. I will still drink caffeine until I can gently ease myself off of this drug.
3. I found the cutest most adorable 21 year old Raw Foods Guru. I finally met Kristina & she is tiny & looks like she is 14. I almost didn't believe her & thought how could this child at one time in her life have been 15 pounds lighter?!?!?!? Raw foods saved her life!!!
4. I joined a new gym that has every aerobics class you can imagine even though the sales rep I had for membership sign ups is a complete douche canoe.
   
5. My beautiful husband that is by my side no matter what. As a matter of fact, he said he'd ask me to marry him today just as I am. I LOVE that man!!
6. I am going to give myself a break for once. I have always been my own worst enemy & screw that-way too much wasted energy.
7. My friend Mechelle has introduced me to so many cool people & I have now officially found my NEW girl crush...who i have decided to aspire to be like (details to follow).
8. I am logging off the internet for a while unless I am stalking some raw foods guru or touching base with my core group of friends.

I think that's a good start :) I LOVE all of you that support me & I can't wai to see what the next 3 weeks brings me. Yes-I am debating a couple of things to do in the next 3 weeks. I'll fill ya in later.

Many HUGS!!!

JM