Kale Chips

So I tried my hand at kale chips yesterday. I took a recipe from one of Becky's Blogs http://mustfollowrecipes.blogspot.com/search/label/dairy%20free. I keep trying to link stuff on here, but my computer is not cooperating! Anyway, I wasn't quite sure what to expect because I've never eaten kale - I've only heard how it's really good for you. The first batch I baked for 15 minutes. At first I was like 'Uh, I think this is right?!?!' I thought they were too crisp so I cooked the second batch for 10 minutes. That was a HUGE difference in texture/taste. Turns out I liked my first batch better. The kale shrinks so much that they become paper thin & literally melt in your mouth. I dig it & will make this on a weekly basis. I figure I at least get some greens in somehow right?

Tonight I am making this recipe - Chicken & Potatoes in the oven. I pulled it from this Blog: http://gfcfblog.blogspot.com/. I am using sweet potato for me & regular potatoes for my husband. I am hoping I don't taste the chicken. For those of you who don't know - every time I eat a piece of an animal (red meat, chicken, turkey, etc.) it literally tastes like it was just killed & skinned, plucked whatever. I am one of the lucky few who has discovered that I am just a sensitive person when it comes to my body. Like for example, if I eat an apple, I taste the soil, the stem & whatever goes into growing an apple. I am coming to terms with all this & am hoping that in time by eating well & healthy that my taste buds will change for the better.

I kind of want to start a new blog about my GF/DF/SF journey. What do y'all think?!?!? I'll post later about my chicken dish.

Peace!

Asian

Much Better :D

Ok, I just re-read my last post & WAAAAAAAAAH (what a baby I was....) But such is life & all things that go with it. I really appreciated Becky commenting :) I kind of logged off for a few days & realized that things do get better.


Now for anyone who knows me, please don't pass out when I say this. I am really starting to like cooking. Like I've said before...Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! For now, I am grilling & baking a lot of chicken. I don't like red meat so much, but I know how to pan cook chicken where it tastes really good. A little onion & eggplant & voila, a good nutritious meal.

So it does turn out that I am on a low carb diet. No wheat, dairy or sugar. Lots of veggies & lean meats. I still haven't ruled out fruit - I love fruit! But, it's almost November & I am not sure what fruit is in season. Making it to Whole Foods is journey as there are none close to where I live. Anyway, thanks again Becky http://boysrulemylife.blogspot.com/ for the encouraging words! You rock!!!

Love

Asian

Blech

That's how I feel right now. I woke up feeling nauseous & it hasn't gone away. Blech...Yet, I still dragged my ass to the grocery store! Growing up SUCKS. I wish someone would have told me a long time ago that I will need a shit ton of money to live the way I want to - i.e. pay someone to do my shopping for me. I am totally miss cranky pants right now because I can be. What I mean by growing up sucking is I am responsible for my life. Blah, blah blah....

Sigh...It's like this shit is hard. I can only imagine people who have serious complications on top of that. So my therapist, as I stated in my last post, wants me to go gluten free. Well, she said 'No sugar & no wheat.' Simple enough right?!?! WrONG. Something is going on with me because I am still really sad & I think it has to do with the fact that I have to cook & shop for myself. You know, normal everyday things that most people do all the time without batting an eyelash. Sad truth is, I am not very fond of things called the grocery store. I sat in my car in tears because of the unkown that is this place with bountiful of foods that help you stay alive. Truly, it's a place of sheer terror for me because I have no fucking clue what I am doing there. I guess in laymen's terms, it's like my trying to do calculus when I was an English Lit major. ....

Ok, NO my life doesn't suck. Changing eating habits does. I know, I know...I am supposed to be positive about this shit, but it's hard. One day at a time...one day at a time. Tonight I am going to try some eggplant chicken dish. It's GF/DF/SF. Oh please cooking Gods, let this be a great dish.

Well, I hope everything is well in your world. I am going to go cry in a corner until I have to start this cooking thing again.

Asian

Gluten Free

Ok...after talking to my therapist this weekend, she strongly urged that I go gluten free/sugar free. I am going to add dairy free to this as well. I've been on a fucked up roller coaster ride for the past 6 years & I am ready to get off. I am ready to put my feet back on the ground & walk around to see what else is going on at the carnival.

So instead of torturing myself about what to eat, I am just going to eliminate sugar & wheat & dairy from my diet. Should be interesting, but I need to cling to something & follow through. Before everyone faints & people turn over in their graves, I've actually started cooking. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...Don't tell ANYONE. Blech...Ok, not blech. Cooking isn't that bad & I actually follow recipes very well. Who knew?!?! There are some things I want/need:

A mixing bowl
Stainless Steel Cookware
An Apron

OMG-I am BACK in the 50's!!! But I can empathize with the ladies that came before us. I am BORED out of my mind staying at home. I don't mind not working, but I have way too much idle time. So naturally I have to gravitate to something that benefits me, my health & my husband. PLUS, we don't have a ton of disposable income, so I have to do things that are virtually cost free. So please, if you actually are reading this, wish me luck on my ventures!!!

Will keep you posted...

XXOO

Asian

Raw Foods

Ok...so here we go again. I keep trying to learn to cook (I have actually been somewhat successful), but I keep getting this nagging feeling in the back of my mind that I need to stay away from animal products. More than anything for these reasons: 1) I am lactose intolerant 2) Everytime I eat any animal meat, I literally taste the game & not the flavor. BLECH! It's like it just literally got plucked or butchered. More so than anything, I think it's a health thing too.

Here is where I get stuck. I am stepping into this with absolute uncertaintity if I am doing this correctly. Like, is this really the way I should be doing it? Are these detox symptoms or am I just not eating enough. Oh the flood (I am talking Noah's Ark flood) of questions that come through the pipe. I am not being lazy, just overly cautious. I do know this, whenever I eat fresh fruit, I feel alive. I don't feel tired. The hard part for me is veggies. Why the fuck are vegetables so hard to contend with!?!?

Sigh...This sadness thing is coming in waves now. I'll be okay & then BAM - I feel like I am in mourning. I Am going to get my head shrunk this weekend, so I'll post about how that goes.

On a good note, the weather here in TX has turned phenomenal!!! No a/c needed, just open windows :) Anyway, I guess I just have to put one foot in front of the other when it comes to food. Ok, well thanks for listening.

Asian

Hmph

Ok...I think I may have figured out a bit of my sadness...I think it's my grandfather's birthday. I really miss him. My Jewish grandparents were a huge part of my life growing up. It's just so weird to not get that birthday card or phone call. I don't know. I think there is still a lot of anger I need to work through as well. A lot has to do with my husband I think. Don't get me wrong, he is sweet as pie & treats me like a princess, but that doesn't mean he doesn't make mistakes. It's hard to not remember those mistakes sometimes. No cheating involved, just a lot of WHY?!?!?!?!

Sadness

I haven't written in months...Well, Yeah, Ok - I haven't really HAD anything to write about. Does anyone really care what I write anyway?! lol - I am truly just writing what I feel because typing is easier than writing these days.

So for some unknown reason, a huge wave of sorrow hit me today. It was about mid afternoon & for the life of me I can't figure out why. I don't have depression...I am thinking maybe it's a form of anger? It was such a huge hit, that I almost didn't go hang out with my family whom I absolutely love & adore. Could it be the death of old me? But why the fuck would I worry about her?!?!?!

I've been listening to music for the past two hours & I realize that my life has to revolve around music in some form. It truly makes the world go around. Ok, my point for bringing this up is it totally affects my mood!!!! Does that happen to you?! I have to admit, the music lover in me is incredibly bi-polar. Love all kinds (except country music - that is like scraping nails down a chalkboard for me). Ooooooooooooh...I think I am getting it. I need to stay unplugged. I just got back from vacation from Hawaii & didn't really have any ties to social media. That has to be it.

I've been reading books like they are going out of style. I forgot how much I love to read. Hmmm....I think this damn post is bi-polar. I am all over the place. But mostly I want to write about the sadness. I haven't felt this in eons. I don't have anything to be sad about unless it's something that is going to happen. Which could possibly be it. BUT with 80's music in the background how could I be sad?!?! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr....Oh well...to be continued.

Peace!

Asian