Tag! You're it.

So my friend Tex has tagged me to rattle off 7 random little known facts about myself. In the spirit of cool things to do, here are mine:

1. I've never had a martini. I found out at a young age that I am allergic to alcohol. Ok, before y'all start thinking about calling cps on my parents, I meant when I was doing that kid thing in High School & figured out that the Al-k-haul is not for me. So therefore I have never had a martini.
2. I am insanely obsessed with Sting & The Police. I fell in love in jr. high & never looked back. As a matter of fact when my husband & I went to see The Police in concert, the first thing he did was hand over his wedding ring as a joke, well kind of, ok not really. Not to mention my friends have trained themselves to call me whenever they get a whiff of Sting being on a talk show or performing on t.v.
3. I think that flatulence is hysterical!!! I don't know why, but toots make me laugh so hard I almost pee my pants. Burps run a close second, but farts take the cake. Hahahaha!!!
4. My favorite junk food snack is to take a bite of a snickers bar, throw a handful of popcorn in my mouth at the same time. Crunch the chocolate with the salty & wash it down with Dr. Pepper. NOM NOM. I figured this out in college & not sure why. But I hearts it.
5. When I was four years old I broke my right hand just as I was learning to write. I was ambidextrious for a while.
6. I am a day dreamer. I day dream at all hours of the day - even when I am happy. I have a rather large imagination & if it were appropriate for an adult to truly act like a kid, I probably would.
7. I have hearing like a bat. It drives me crazy. I can hear people blink & when people tap their fingers all the way across a room. I wish I had cooler Spidey Senses, but I am stuck with ears that can hear 5 miles away & in a wind tunnel.

I am supposed to tag other bloggers, but I am not as rico suavey about doing thing with my blog. So if you are reading this, post your fun facts!!!

Peace out!!!

180

This is a nice round number. It's also the number that popped up on the scale this morning. I haven't weighed myself in a while. So I thought since I am embarking on the poor man's version of The Biggest Loser, I needed to weigh in. I am ok with this number. NormallyI'd feak out, but I know things are going to change. I feel like I have a heightened sense of awareness now - like reading labels & using real food to fuel my body.

This morning I got up and felt peaceful. No anxiety & no million miles an hour thoughts. So I drank a cup of organic coffee with organic half & half & blech splenda. But baby steps remember? Then I hopped on my treadmill for the duration of a dvr'd dr. oz show & wrote down my exercise. 2.5 mph:1.388miles:33:38 minutes.

Breakfast: 8 0z of Organic Greek yogurt, 1/4 cup of blueberries & 1/4 organic granola. Not too bad :) I am also trying my vice busting with the water. So far so good. When I kick the soft drink habit it's going to be awesome!!!!

Also, I know I've started & stopped a lot of things. But after reading Half Assed it reminded me that I just have to do it. Or as Nike says - Just Do It!!! It doesn't have to be completing an Iron Man Triathlon, just get it done! I am going to run errands & then when I get back I am going to workout again., Like I said, poor people's version of The Biggest Loser. Lol!!! So, great start to a Monday.

Peace out Peops!!!

All the Women Independent...Throw Your Hands up at Me!

Remember when Destiny's Child sang that song for Charlie's Angels? I REALLY Love it when chicks kick ass in movies. It makes me want to be just like them. I visualize me in my rock hard body whoopin' some ass! At one point in time I used the phrase 'Work hard / Play hard!' Which I actually did do. I completed a sprint triathlon & ran my first 5k. Quite honestly, I hate to run. Not a big fan at all. It hurts & then I don' get far. But I do remember feeling great for being able to run ok, jog the entire 5k. Really I realize that ya just need to move your body to feel great. Regardless what your MO is for doing it.

So I am reading this great book about busting your vices. I like the way she writes & guides you through some lifestyle changes. For instance, she pegs the top 3 vices that keep people from losing weight. You ready to hear them? Drum roll please.........1) Soft Drinks 2) Fast Food 3) t.v. I was like, damn, is this chick stalking me?!?! How does she know this? So she gets you to take out a vice one week at a time. I am going to try this as my MOJO is back! I am a better version of my old self, I just need to get my oustide to match my inside. My man is leaving for a month :( for a business trip & I am going to be all alone. I really look at it though to recalibrate my bad habits into good ones & get my arse moving. But I am still going to miss him. I know sleeping will be hard to do.....

Well all my independent Ladies, get out there & move yo body! One step at a time.

xxoo

I am so Drunk...with Love & Compassion

So I think I finally know what it is like for someone who does drugs & gets that instant high. I've never done drugs (they scare me!) & I don't drink. BUT, my assumption is that what I am feeling is like a hit of heroin. I feel so amazing that if I could shoot this feeling into my veins I'd probably do it every day.



I had a visit with my amazingly Awesomesauce incredibly Dazzling beautiful Loving Therapist & FINALLY had a real emotional release. I won't go into details, but I just have to say this: I get a gold star for accomplishing something & truly passing through to the other side. I can't even form sentences & literally am slurring my speech because the release was that intense & that real. I truly feel drunk & high at the same time & can finally say THIS is what it's supposed to feel like. I think I have a lot of great shizz coming my way & I am stepping out of my way & getting it done! Ok, I am too wooozy to type anymore.

Love to all!!!

Going Green

So I posted a while back about my mission to go green. Starting with food. It literally is baby steps. I mean one thing at a time. The one thing I have done is I have gone pretty much 99% organic. Anything that is cooked is organic & can I tell you it makes a huge difference in taste & how I feel? The coffee even tastes cleaner. The strange thing is this, whenever I eat a healthy meal, I instantly get sick. I mean nauseated & have to lie down. If I eat a junk meal, I am bouncing around the room fine. Am I that TOXIC?!?! I think I have to go through dr. grose's First Line Therapy. I'll know more tomorrow morning. Speaking of, my third round of progesteron starts on the 16th. We'll see how that goes. Again, my energy has been wishy washy again.

Woke up with all kinds of congestion. I can't imagine why...It's finally a nice day out. So the job hunt is so/so. I am trying to figure out if I want to work for a year & clear out all debt & then retire permanently, or kick it & get by. I am seeing my happy heard person tomorrow so she'll be able to help point me in the right direction. I wanted to stop, but i think one more visit can't hurt!

Oh! Happy Valentine's Day to everyone!!! We are not ones to celebrate, but for those who do more power to ya :) I hope everyone is surrounded by the peple they love every day!

Hugs!!!

Follow Up Dr.'s Visit

So I just got back from a wonderful sushi lunch with my man. That was after I went to see Dr. Grose. She so reminds me of my mother I want to squeeze her so tight every time I see her! Anyway, I got the test results for my adrenal gland test & that baby is in overdrive! I wish I had a working scanner because I'd scan my results to be able explain it better. I think the gist of it is this, that my cortisol levels are off the charts so my adrenal gland is working over drive. I am not able to turn my brain off so I am using up all this energy with my wondering thoughts. Remember a couple of posts ago when I said how my thought processes go? Now I know why. The strange thing is, it says I am stressed out, but I don't feel stressed out because my body is used to it. She even told me that if the supplements she gave me didn't work, then I'd need to work towards something like meditation to calm my brain down. Oh & she told me that the melatonin in our bodies kicks in at 1 am & I have to be asleep by 11 pm. Two hours prior to meatonin, we should be asleep. I am a night owl & can't turn my brain off & she said that is affecting my stress levels as well.

She put me on probiotics & a vitamin b complex. Then she told me to take 4000 ius of vitamin d instead of the 2500 I'd been taking. Again, she emptied out my wallet. But I firmly believe I will get healthier & in the long run this won't be so expensive. We are staying on the progesterone plan as well. As soon as I save up some benjamins, I am going to go to her nutritionist. They do a whole body plan - blood panel to start & then counseling.

I truly am glad that I reconnected with Dr. Grose. She is amazing! I am excited to be figuring this whole health thing out. Well, I am going to take a nap. It's one of those cold rainy days :)


Hugs & Peace!!!

Sugar

I'm convinced that sugar is the devil. I may have mentioned this before. It's right up there with my sister-in-law & Bin Laden. It's so addictive. I think in the past I let myself get wrapped up in the emotional eating that when I try to leave sugar, I come back like an abused wife. It's awful. I get horrible headaches & nausea if I don't get it. Maybe it's more like crack. Whatever it is, I think it's probably best if I let it go.

Not sure what is going on, but my energy slumps are back. I took like two naps today & slept til 10 am this morning. I need to call my dr. tomorrow & set up an appointment. Ugh...I can't afford her right now though. Also I am a bit worried because I think the lymph node under my right armpit is a bit swollen & tender to the touch. Yeah...probably need to get that checked out.

Anyway, my life is about as boring as it can get. Just checking in...

Peace & Love!