Ducks in a Row

So I had an assessment done by my guru's equal today. I knew that Coach Kimmie would do right by me :) There are few people in my industry that I trust & she falls into the Trust category. The cool thing is that she doesn't just do the standard sit & reach test. She lays you down on your back & you just start to relax. She's totally sizing you up!! What I mean by that is she is looking for muscle imbalances & weakness. So pretty much I have all kinds of misalignments due to muscle weaknesses. She had me do a balance test in the beginning & I was all over the place!!! It was pretty funny looking. By the end of the session after she had me do all kinds of core & rehab exercises, I was completely stable (Insert the AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaah light here).

In a nutshell she told me I so shouldn't be doing CrossFit but that I can do regular strength training & I need to be walking 3 miles a day 5 x's a week. How do you like them apples? Better yet, how do I like them apples? I like it a lot! As a trainer, I want to be like Coach Kimmie. She is so knowledgeable & isn't just a counter of reps. I have mad respect for her. She told me to go to my island & I love that. She's right. She said to stop reading & overloading myself with information. As a person, intuitively I knew stuff was wrong with me. I could just feel it. So I have the next 6-8 weeks before I can turn my hardcore working out on. Which is ok. I finally have an answer &I feel good.

So tomorrow morning it begins! I will be walking my arse off. Oh!! About all my ducks in a row-now I have the workout part in control, I have found the nutrition aspect, I just need to manifest some $$ for it. My trainer is m'f'n expensive!!! So I am feeling a bit more calm about everything & feel like I am getting all my ducks in a row...So excited!!!

Peace!!!

Relief

Ok-things have been settled with monster-in-law. Peace is now reigning over our household :)

Other than that, I am just recovering from workout related injuries. I have an appointment with a trainer that is going to do a full assessment on me & see where my muscle imbalances lie, etc. She is an equal to my mentor & at this point, I just need help! I wish i could diagnose my own stuff, but it's out of my scope. Know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em, know when to walk away!!!

Anyway, thanks for bearing with me in my crazy in-lawness. Tomorrow, listening to my body, walking, weight lifting...We'll see what tomorrow brings!!

Peace!

Expressing my right to write

Ok-I know I said I'd get back to business about my weight loss journey, blah blah blah. BUT, just when I think things are going well, something small happens & then I am full of nothing but piss & vinegar. This is the only place I can vent any of this. Facebook is a bit too upclose & personal kind of like all the other social networks. But this is my blog & I can do what I want to.

I wish there was a way for me to divorce my in-laws. I am this close to getting a restraining order, mainly because i never want to see them ever again. I KNOW my mother in law is going to live to be 100 just to fuck with me. UGH!!!!! I HATE her so much & his fucked up sisters. I love my husband, but i swear this can be a deal breaker for me.

I know I am not perfect, but I don't intentionally go & do something horribly wrong & hope for forgiveness later. I DON'T play like that. I never have & I NEVER will. Them? That's all they do. That fucking shit is spilling over into my life & I FUCKING hate it. If you lie to my face-I don't forgive as easily. Just be front about your fucked up ness & then we can move on. Again, I am all pissed off & my husband wants things to be peachy between us. You know what? I actually get to process. Yep-I get to bitch & moan about it until I feel better. That's my right & no one can take that away either.

All I want to do is say 'F***' 0ver & over again. Seriously. Aside from breaking shit. Tomorrow is going to have to be a better day.

Crunch Time

Ok-getting closer to 26. ok, ok, 35 is going to be my real age, but i refuse to be a day older than 26. Anyway, I have roller derby tonight & that is a rigorous workout :) 2 hours of up/down & cardio. Oh! The real reason i posted this is that alex's x-mas party is dec. 11. that's close. yikes!!!!

Light Hearted :)

I know this is going to sound crazy, BUT my husband & I had a huge blowout fight about his family & it was the best thing ever. We never fight & the only time we do is when it comes to that craziness. Anyway, long story short-we are totally on the same page now & life is all good again. YAY!

Tomorrow I am going to go to CrossFit & then do an hour of cardio & weights & hopefully get to kickboxing.

Hugs!!!

Asian

Re-evaluating

Ok, so do you ever wake up & say to yourself - 'Self, you've been lying to yourself! You think you know everything & what's best for you, but in reality it isn't working.'

It appeared to me today after my crossfit workout. i've been a no no bad liar & it's been to myself. Interestingly enough I haven't beaten myself up about it. All I can do is re-evaluate what it is that I am repeating that isn't working. So with that being said, I KNOW i have to eat better. How can I expect to progress towards my goals & achieve greatness if I keep eating poison? Also, my cardio-WHOA!!! Like I said in a facebook post-I don't even think I can call it cardio. That wouldn't be fair to cardio!

So what is my next step? Push myself harder with my cardio & start to follow a reasonable & doable eating plan. I want to try & cut out most animal products, but at this point I don't think I can completely. Alex, my amazingly supportive husband, is on board with me :) We are painting our cardio room this weekend & setting up our free weights. For the first time in a long time, I am excited about my journey!! Especially now that i have a partner in crime.

Well that's it for now. I am going to go pass out from my workout this morning.

Peace & Love!!!!

Allergies?

Really? Right now in the throes of my badassness? I woke up with a congested head & if there is anything I hate more than running, it's not being able to breathe through my nose. So not fair~!!! I hate taking the allergy medicine because it dries me out & then I get a cough with a funky taste in my mouth. Hmmmm-methinks maybe today is a day of reflection & rest?

I wish I could burn calories snorting snot. Ok that was gross, but that's about all my body is doing right now.

So this post is just so I can post. I wish I lived in a state where we had seasons. I would give anything to experience that. I have lived here all my life & have only seen snow maybe twice in my life. Sigh...Anyway, not sure when I will bring it again. I think tomorrow.

Peace & Love!