It's been five months since I last posted! Good Lawd! Also, the format has changed on blogger. Who knew?
I'm back because, well I am just lazy & starting a whole new blog & really feeling it, just doesn't seem worth the time right now. Speaking of time, I have all the time in the world, but I am more about sleeping, eating well (sort of) & getting my groove back in regards to exercise.
About 3 weeks ago I was diagnosed with metabolic syndrome. I was horribly ashamed & embarrassed to admit this to anyone. Mainly because I thought it was a lifestyle thing, but now I know it's genetic & lifestyle affects the outcome. Needless to say I cried for two weeks straight. Not really because of the diagnosis, but more so I was ALREADY motivated & getting my groove on in getting healthy. Ok, let me back up a little bit....I actually had gone to an HCG clinic because - like I said - I was ready to lose all this weight & move on with my life. I had to take a blood test to see if I am compatible with the diet & the blood test came back & gave a resounding HELL NO. Something about my liver being fatty or something. So the dr. at the clinic said get your pcp to agree to this & we can do this. I go to an MD who is also an ND & she gave a resounding HELL NO in a very stern Chinese voice b/c she's Chinese. Anyway, she gave me this diet to follow & said 'See ya in 4 weeks.'
Ok - I cried from day one & it took me two weeks to not cry. I finally broke down & went to my therapist & she said when you cleanse the liver you literally could laugh one moment & end in tears the next. Thank God, because I thought I was going nuts. I think I needed to throw in a bit of PMS in there somewhere too. There were funny moments where I'd be eating a salad with my husband, tears streaming down my face & he'd say shit like 'SADDEST salad ever...' Poor guy, he had no idea what to do with me!
Even through it all, I stopped going through the drive thru. I just knew it was harming me & shortening my lifestyle. I tried the dr.'s diet for a week & said to hell with this. I'd rather eat unlimited fruits & veggies with a side of almonds. It's interesting the side effects of what I put into my body. Even eating lean animal protein, my body odor was horrible! I just don't process meats or poultry very well. I had been trying the diet since around 4/11/12. Blech....Intuitively I knew I couldn't live this way. As my therapist says, I am not black & white & neither should my diet be.
I want to fast forward to today because I have been really good about eating whole foods. I am still trying to get to eating just mainly veggies & fruits, but I am not wholly there. The reason I even wanted to put this in writing is I actually had a cheat meal today. Can I tell you that I feel like hammered shit. I am not doing that again. If I cheat, it's going to be a vegetarian cheat. You see, I have decided that being vegan suits me. Not 100% raw, but vegan because I still like to cook. I like the way I feel, I like the energy & I like the NON bloating. I am kind of far from my end result, but now I have added in exercise. Speaking of...I've had back problems that were preventing me from exercising, but now I am able to move more - YAY!!!
I am ready to REALLY post my daily activity because I want the accountability. Does anyone read this anyway?!?! Ok, well, if you DO read this...Please post a comment :) I'd appreciate any support along the way.
Love & All that Jazz
Asian
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