Let's see. I went & saw the nutritionist. I posted a bit on Facebook how she was quite the nutty professor. In her defense I did say I wanted to get healthy because I may want to have a baby. So with that being said, after chit chatting & bla bla bla, she finally gets to the being a nutritionist part. She was asking me questions about my lifestyle, etc. & then asked me about stress. I let her know the only real source of stress is & always has been my in-laws. OH GIRL. Wrong thing apparently to say to nutritionist who thinks she is a therapist. Really?? She goes into this tirade about how when women breast feed they get orgasms & they are attached to their children that way & that is why women won't have sex with their husbands when their babies are nursing. OMFG. REALLY?!?!?! I don't remember signing up for you to psycho analyze me & my husband. All I wanted was some direction. Guidance - a jump start. NONE of that happened. She was all over the place. Threw up a bunch of information that she kept telling me helped her & then sent me on my way. No follow up or meal plan or anything. I will not be going back to crazy. I like to actually back away from crazy...
The plus is I have started a workout routine. Last week was my first week of boot camp
Shame is a funny thing. It keeps ya from doing the things you love & being your best self. Since I am striving to be my best self, I am happy that I am seeing a therapist. I get to see her this week & I know all things will be well. I kind of feel like I am moving in inches & not leaps & bounds, but then I have to realize that I am changing the way I live & it's hard. My doctor gave me a prescript for anti-depressants, but I haven't filled it yet. I have an apprehension of chemically altering my brain & my thoughts. But I am wondering if it will help me initially & then I can ween myself off of it. I spend half a month depressed because of PMS & pms is getting worse & worse as I get older. So we'll see what happy head person has to say :)
So this is where I am. I am working on getting healthier for real this time & I know there are some days I won't be 100%, but I am ok with that. Yesterday was a really bad day. I had horrible headaches & allergies. I did get a workout in though! Ok, this was a long rambling post, but just the shizz going on in my life. I hope everyone is well!!! My birthday is in 11 days!!! 26 is going to be a fantastic year!!!
Hugs & Peace!!!
First, orgasms during nursing? Really? Boy... I missed out! I breastfed all three of mine for at least 9 months... I didn't see any of that action! LOL! Still had sex with the hubs, too! She's a wack job. I say you are doing well to run from her! LOL!
ReplyDeleteGood for you on working towards a better you! I need to do that as well. As far as weight goes, I need to lose AT LEAST 25 pounds. Really more like 35. Blech.
A word of caution about anti-depressants... do some research on your particular medication regarding coming off of it before you start. My hubs has been on one for 6 years now and has had a horrible time trying to even decrease the drug. After a little research, we found it to be common what he is going through and the only successful strategy we have read about is to open each little pill and remove the balls a few at a time. (Like for the first two weeks remove 5 balls. Week 3 - 4: 10 balls, etc...) THat's just plain NUTS!!!
See if you can find a homeopathic doctor in your area, too. I have personally started to believe that medical doctors just hand out prescriptions too quickly. Not that you don't need it, because you might... and there is nothing wrong with that. At all! Just be sure to educate yourself first.
Ok... sorry for the soapbox. I've got some strong feelings about all of this as my hubs is really struggling with his drugs and I'm finding that a chiropractor is fixing problems that MDs just wanted to give us drugs for to cover up the problem... not fix it.
For real now... I'm done. You didn't ask for all this! LOL!
Hope you have a very happy 26th birthday. I'm still 28. :) Sometimes it is good to lie to ourselves. HAHAHAHAHA!
have a great day...
thanks for the room to vent on your blog...
sorry for that.
I need to go now before I make a bigger fool out of myself.
Love ya!
Becky, you are never ever a fool in my eyes!!! You & I have a lot of the same beliefs when it comes to health :) I agree about the anti-depressants & I also agree with MD's & their putting a bandaid on things instead of fixing them. The only real reason I was kicking around the idea of taking them is that I spend two weeks out of the month depressed from PMS. Then there are two weeks where I am fine & my dr. pointed out that is half my life. But I am meeting with my therapist tomorrow & want to see what she says.
ReplyDeleteAlso, you are allowed to vent any time! I'll keep ya posted on everything - promise! Plus I promise to do my research. I appreciate your input sistah.
xxoo - Jen