Happy Head Person Visit

So I met with my happy head person on Thursday. It was a great & really productive session. There were a couple of things I needed to ask her about & then a couple of things I really needed help with.

My first question to her was about my anger issues. I told her that I have a very short temper & that I am quick to snap these days. After much long discussion, she told me this: Jen, I have been psycho analyzing for years now & the one conclusion I have come up with is that there are two people in this world - Nice & Mean. You have fallen on some not so nice things in the past 4-5 years & you have given up on mankind. The reason is that you are one of the nice ones. By being hurt so much you have tried on the tough girl act & it doesn't work for you. You HAVE absorbed all the anger around you until you exploded-it's not your anger. So I was very happy to hear that the raging psychotic bitch I have been isn't me. lol! But HHP, I can't work for other people - They SUCK! No, you can work for people, you just have to work for NICE people. Ok...So that leads to the other part of our discussion.

JOB. Now, don't get me wrong, I LOVE not having any responsibility, but...HHP told me that I am bored & not stimulated. She said I am too smart to not have another degree in something or be pursuing anything right now. How did this one come about? Read on: Jen, do you love animals? Uh, yeah-I like them. How much do you like them? I don't know, my pets are like my kids... Do you see yourself working with them? Maybe in a vet's office? No, I really don't like picking up poo or cleaning cages - just love to play or cuddle. Why? Do you think I need a job?!?!?! Actually, yes I do. You need to find a way to share the light you have inside you. To share love & light is to heal. Right now you have such a small world & need to share that light! I know you are on your spiritual journey, but if that is ALL you have to focus on then it's not healthy. Right now it's: 1. Journey 2. Husband 3. Workout 4. In-laws. You need a Much Much bigger horizon. That is so weird...I was just thinking about how I needed to get a job. Not necessarily for money, but something to do & feel a bit more independent. AWESOME!!!!

HHP, my general practitioner gave me a prescript for Wellbrutin because half the month I am depressed due to PMS. He politely pointed out that is half my life. What are your thoughts on that? I am hesitant due to the brain altering chemicals that will enter my body... No, first you need to get some evening primrose oil. Take the capsules. The wellbutrin may make you feel better, but you will gain weight & it just masks the problem & alleviates symptoms. You won't get to the root of what's going on. I think you should see a kinesiologist named X & he is awesome. He will send you home with a bag full of supplements. Or maybe a naturopath dr. or an accupuncturist who treats with herbs. I am a bit hesitant on seeing the kinesiligist because I hate taking pills. When I was little I had to take pills from the time I was 4 until I was 12 because I had temporal lobe seizures. WHY didn't you tell me you had been on long term anti-seizure medicine? That makes this a bit of a different ball game. I dunno, I never think about it? Didn't think it was that big of a deal? Ok, don't go see kinesioligist, go see a naturopath. You need answers! Bring your physical test results to her & let her know you had been on anti-seizure meds. Ok, I have heard of Dr. Nellie Grose. YES! Go see her, years ago we would refer the kids to see her (she used to run a school).

So, after all this she wrote out a list for me to do:

1). Get health in order - you need to be balanced out
2). Look up long term side effects of Tegretol (anti-seizure med)
3). Get part-time job
4). Start travel fund

Here is the big kicker of everything. Remember in my last post or two I mentioned I have a huge vitamin d deficiency? The only long term side effect of Tegretol I could find is that it messes with the body's ability to properly absorb Vitamin D - therefore making bones brittle & of course hindering the ability to properly absorb calcium. That was such a WHOA moment for me. Because I would have never thought about the days I had to meds & look at a long term side effect. Never! SO that explains a lot :) I am taking Vita D supps as we speak.

I have an appointment on Monday at 2 pm with Dr. Grose. I can't wait & hopefully will truly get the answers I need to help me get to optimal & balanced health. YAY Happy Head Person VISIT!!!

Now that you have read my rendition of War & Peace...lol! I hope everyone has a marvelous day & I will definitely keep you posted.

Peace!!!